You don't need to tell me how they talk about you guys in intelligence. I just also know how hard your job is. We've all got burdens, it's easier for a pilot to distance themselves from it.
And yeah, I get that. I mean, I don't know the details, but I can tell that you're carrying things with you.
It's nothing I'm not used to. It does tend to wear on your nerves after a while. I am a person, despite what I do. I feel things. Too deeply, sometimes.
Pilots might be able to distance themselves from a lot of it, but you feel things, too.
I wouldn't even know where to begin, honestly. We'd probably drink ourselves to death talking about it all.
[ooc: continued from here. Also, glad to help you discover this side of him, ahahaha!]
You want me. I am yours for the taking. If the mental images are this good, imagine how much better the real thing is going to be - the initial struggle, the inevitable realization that I am outmatched. And I may be mostly still, but I haven't given up, I still test your grip, I still move against you, still let you feel what you are doing to me.
It takes an extraordinary amount of trust to put myself into someone's hands like this, to allow them to take me apart and put me together again afterwards. This is not a side of myself that I've shown to many. But I trust you, Cal.
Where are you? Or am I to play a game of hide-and-seek until I find you?
consider yourself taken, wholly and completely, by me
( if it can be at all considered a revelation, and not just an unstated fact. strange, that marriage talk should come before i love you falls from her lips, but — like the force, it's obvious, in the air they breathe, the moments they share. )
really? you know i before we landed on jedha i went through your bag to see if you had a holo of your wife
[Cassian's not good with words - at least not the open and honest ones, the I love yous that he wants to offer in the quiet moments. He hopes that Jyn knows that he imbues them in his actions instead, how he tries to provide her with the things he observes her needing. Scarf, when hers begins to fray. Thicker gloves, when she's been assigned a mission someplace cold. Maybe, for the time being, Cassian's love language is acts of service.]
I figured. How did you feel when you didn't find anything?
It kind of is, isn't it? I'm no poet, but I know what's true.
No wife. No significant other of any kind, except for Kay, I suppose. Were you having untoward thoughts, even then? I know I wanted to kiss you at 'trust goes both ways', maybe before then.
even if you're not, you still always know what to say. that makes you better than a poet.
i could just as easily show you what i was thinking about, if you'd come to me. something about putting your mouth to better use than mission debriefs, i'm sure. i distinctly remember thinking that if you didn't want me to defy you, you shouldn't look so handsome when you lose.
I don't always know what to say - but I do try to follow my heart, for what it's worth. I always want to be honest with you, Jyn.
Mm, well. That's quite the incentive to get done as quickly as I can, isn't it? So I can come and do something far more pleasant with my mouth. I'm sure you've got plenty of ideas as to what I should use it for, don't you?
Is that why you were such a little thorn in my side? I'm glad you were, you kept pushing me in the right direction.
[ooc: Continued from here (a thousand years ago I'm so sorry)]
I'm not much better, but for you, I'll always try.
Complain all you want, Jyn, but you know you like to tease me as much as I like to tease you. And you're so good at it, too.
You know that I'll give you whatever you want. But I'll admit - I've been thinking a lot about you and that pretty mouth of yours and how it feels sucking my cock. Would you want to taste yourself there, after I've fucked you to an orgasm or two? I'll take whatever you want to give me, wherever and however you want it. All you ever have to do is ask.
Or tell me. I'll be so good for you, Jyn.
And when we've got the time ... oh, I will get you so close to the edge with my tongue, my fingers ... and then I'll stop. I'll do it over and over and over again. I'll do it until you're shaking with need. I'll do it until you plead with me to let you come.
And then I will.
Until you're so sated, you can't move. Until you can't remember your name. Until I absolutely cannot go anymore.
Love, you don't ever have to try to convince me of anything. All I am and all I've got to give are yours.
I feel fortunate that you trust me enough to let me see the other parts of you that others never get to see. To tell the truth, I enjoy every side of you.
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momijizukamori
(for poe)
Can't repress them all, I suppose.
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[ take it from a man who's rarely attempted to? look, he knows what he's talking about ]
It's okay you know. To have feelings. Obviously you can't let them get in the way of the mission, but we're still human.
one milion years later
[There is actually a hint of dry humor in the words, even if they don't translate well over text.]
I've got a lot to work through, you know?
c:
And yeah, I get that. I mean, I don't know the details, but I can tell that you're carrying things with you.
vry slow, that is me
Pilots might be able to distance themselves from a lot of it, but you feel things, too.
I wouldn't even know where to begin, honestly. We'd probably drink ourselves to death talking about it all.
(for jyn)
First round's on me.
(for cal)
You want me. I am yours for the taking. If the mental images are this good, imagine how much better the real thing is going to be - the initial struggle, the inevitable realization that I am outmatched. And I may be mostly still, but I haven't given up, I still test your grip, I still move against you, still let you feel what you are doing to me.
It takes an extraordinary amount of trust to put myself into someone's hands like this, to allow them to take me apart and put me together again afterwards. This is not a side of myself that I've shown to many. But I trust you, Cal.
Where are you? Or am I to play a game of hide-and-seek until I find you?
(poeticforce)
If all goes well, I'll be returning shortly.
And already looking forward to your being there to welcome me back. So - where are you? Where can I meet you?
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cont.
consider yourself taken, wholly and completely, by me
( if it can be at all considered a revelation, and not just an unstated fact. strange, that marriage talk should come before i love you falls from her lips, but — like the force, it's obvious, in the air they breathe, the moments they share. )
really?
you know i
before we landed on jedha
i went through your bag to see if you had a holo of your wife
no subject
[Cassian's not good with words - at least not the open and honest ones, the I love yous that he wants to offer in the quiet moments. He hopes that Jyn knows that he imbues them in his actions instead, how he tries to provide her with the things he observes her needing. Scarf, when hers begins to fray. Thicker gloves, when she's been assigned a mission someplace cold. Maybe, for the time being, Cassian's love language is acts of service.]
I figured.
How did you feel when you didn't find anything?
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it's kind of a wedding vow on its own.
i felt relieved, i suppose.
that i wasn't having untoward thoughts towards someone's husband.
no subject
I'm no poet, but I know what's true.
No wife. No significant other of any kind, except for Kay, I suppose. Were you having untoward thoughts, even then?
I know I wanted to kiss you at 'trust goes both ways', maybe before then.
What were you thinking?
no subject
that makes you better than a poet.
i could just as easily show you what i was thinking about, if you'd come to me.
something about putting your mouth to better use than mission debriefs, i'm sure.
i distinctly remember thinking that if you didn't want me to defy you, you shouldn't look so handsome when you lose.
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Mm, well. That's quite the incentive to get done as quickly as I can, isn't it? So I can come and do something far more pleasant with my mouth. I'm sure you've got plenty of ideas as to what I should use it for, don't you?
Is that why you were such a little thorn in my side? I'm glad you were, you kept pushing me in the right direction.
(for jyn)
I'm not much better, but for you, I'll always try.
Complain all you want, Jyn, but you know you like to tease me as much as I like to tease you. And you're so good at it, too.
You know that I'll give you whatever you want. But I'll admit - I've been thinking a lot about you and that pretty mouth of yours and how it feels sucking my cock. Would you want to taste yourself there, after I've fucked you to an orgasm or two?
I'll take whatever you want to give me, wherever and however you want it. All you ever have to do is ask.
Or tell me.
I'll be so good for you, Jyn.
And when we've got the time ... oh, I will get you so close to the edge with my tongue, my fingers ... and then I'll stop.
I'll do it over and over and over again.
I'll do it until you're shaking with need. I'll do it until you plead with me to let you come.
And then I will.
Until you're so sated, you can't move. Until you can't remember your name. Until I absolutely cannot go anymore.
Love, you don't ever have to try to convince me of anything. All I am and all I've got to give are yours.
(for jyn)
I feel fortunate that you trust me enough to let me see the other parts of you that others never get to see. To tell the truth, I enjoy every side of you.